We were at the National library as usual last sunday, eager to get a spot inside the study lounge for a change. It was going to be opened at 9am, so we scheduled to meet on the train at like 8:30 so we'd be in time. Of course, being us, we weren't exactly punctual, but we got to the study lounge at the nlb at 9:05! And surprise, surprise! It was full. Already.
So we started to grumble. It was so typical of us. And we slumped into the cosy carrels in defeat. And pouting. It was dumb, and we decided to wait it out. So for that hour, we just sat on the floor with the short table and pretended we were doing work. No I mean, we were actually looking out for available seats. But tell me, which kiasu idiot would chiong to the library before 9am and then give up his seat at 10am? Noone, seriously. There were these people who left their belongings there for more than an hour. And I was so sure they went for the morning breakfast okay.
So being provoked and frustrated, we headed down to the basement at 10am and we were sure that they were going to have seats. We ended up on the far end of the basement, squeezed in between two chinagirls and two jc guys. We sat there from 10 till 'bout 5pm, and then Hidayah had a call from Jia Hui, who was at the study lounge with Hazel (they were the smarter, earlier birds) , telling us that they had seats for us!
They were nice enough lah, so yeah, we headed up and were finally contented. We no longer had to deal with the shaky table and packed confines of the basement. It was so comical, I tell you. Whenever someone used the eraser, the entire table would experience a seismic earthquake and the people on the table would be like. Sigh. And my bloody stomata stomach was growling! I was writing messages to Hidayah, 'cos the library was too extremely quiet, and she thought I wrote stomata instead of stomach. Of course, we were trying so hard to hide our chuckles like, under the table.
The study lounge was more conducive I guess. You can eat there! Is the best part of it all. And the thing is, you can talk to your friend there and not really be heard at all. They've got wonderfully big and white tables for you to expand your territory as and when you want to spread your books and materials around. (:
There was this man, this middle-aged weirdo. He sat down opposite me and began to whollup his pack of potato chips. Not that I minded the incessant crunching and chewing sounds at all, but the mere sight of him eating like there's no tomorrow made me cringe. When he was done, he bought another pack from the vending machine as we all watched with furtive glances, in disgusted pain.
Nevermind all that, guess what he did after finishing everything up? He took his bottle of barley drink, poured all of its contents into his mouth, and no! He didn't drink it all down. He gurgled the barley drink! For a solid few moments somemore! And in the dead silence of the library, it was all amplified lah!
I was like. Stare. Make him feel embaressed. Make him feel sorry for the gross shit we had to endure. Make him feel bad. Then he gave me a you-got-a-problem-with-me-doing-that look? I went back to my work anyways, and he also disappeared from the lounge for quite a long while, before he came back and shifted his things to another spot.
We mugged till it was time to break fast for Hidayah, and we left our stuff there and got our take away dinner. We had like 20 nuggets and we chowed away under the jealous stares of the other library users. Hahahhaha. Pay back time for not letting us have a place in the morning!
We're heading there this Saturday again. And earlier too, to secure them bloody seats!

Foolish
As usual, the fool in me played me out, like again. I've been believing in this all along.. since eons ago, and every breath and every word you say just hits me so. I guess its just me getting too into it. Sometimes you seem like you bother, and yet other times you're all caught up in your things. When I hear from you, do you know how glad I feel? Maybe you just cannot picture that grin that'd spread across my face.
I seldom let my thoughts wander.. or thats at least what I think I try to do. Gosh.. it seems almost like I'm in a state of denial. It's just that I don't want to allow myself to be optimistic 'bout things, yet you just make it this way. But the chances, the opportunities are like rare, almost one in a million. And when I even think that I got it right, it just goes down the drain like that.
Maybe it just goes to show that, maybe, I should remain pessimistic about this. This whole shit that I think I'm in 'cos of you.. It's not like you're to blame, but I feel theres much more that can be done. I just don't want to fool myself anymore, or simply allow the fool to creep up to me when I'm most unknowing and give me a rude shock.
I just want to be smart about this.
And in case you (yes you, the random blog reader who lands his cursor on this pathetic space) think that its some lovesick, cliche, emotional, complicated, scandalous entry of mine. You're wrong. (:
So maybe its just Boston that has set me thinking. Maybe its the chain of events - a tad too coincidental?
For now, I shall just return to Boston and be drugged by it. I think I already am anyway!
You don't know me,
You don't even care.
You don't know me,
You don't wear my chains.
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Sunday, October 08, 2006
No one knows my name
If you've noticed, the track playing on my blog right now is Boston by Augustana. The player's right at the bottom of this page, so if you wanna hear it again, it's right there for you to click.
I am so in love with this song. And listen to the lyrics, I'm sure they'd mean something to you.
And I just gotta say this, Boston goes out to Adam!
Keep smiling, you. And I'd keep smiling too.
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Friday, October 06, 2006
Hanging On
I love my friends, I really do.
It suddenly hit me that my friends are so important to me! Every single one of them! I can't get enough of their company, their laughter, their countless expressions. Aiyar, they just never stop amusing me. Alllll my friends.
Okay, that was just a thought, 'cos I just heard Let there be love on the radio, first song I hear on a fabulous friday. And it got me thinking!
School today was hectic. I'm so surprised that I'm actually understanding a maths, and I'm able to focus. Gosh, and its the last a maths lesson in my secondary school life. Why didn't I wake up like a year ago?! But nevermind, what's been done (not done, rather) can't be erased.
We had like physics and biology and chem night study today, the usual thursday schedule. I didn't have to be down for bio, so I figured I'd finish my physics at yoshinoya with Karen since I wanted to clarify the questions with her. And I did finally satisfy my cravings for the beef bowl today! We did up some work and then headed back to school to continue, ended at like 9pm and went home lah.
I absolutely hate bloody shits who attempt to destroy my wonderful day at school. It's like, you finish up your work and everything else you can do, and then you feel so satisfied when you hand in your work, and this ass has the cheek to tell you off when you're just about to head home. Of course, I get freaking pissed when these things happen. It's entirely avoidable lah, okay. Especially when I wasn't even talking to you in the first place, and I was so glad to actually see you people after so many hours away, and then you have to fucking put me off just like that? The first sentence that spews from that mouth of yours is something that has to be negative?
Okay. I feel better now. Haha.. and yes Karen, this is what I mean by shitting on my blog. Lol.
Tomorrow is a brand new day. I mean today, actually. We're gonna go to school and look so forward to our (little?) mooncake festival partay at the end of the day. We can be basking in the moonlight later on, and just put our minds off those freaking books for awhile. I can't wait man.
I'm supposed to turn in at midnight. I've actually been working on this Sleep-earlier-and-earlier-every-night Scheme. And it doesn't seem like its working now. The thing is, I'm supposed to go to bed at an earlier time than the previous night to save myself from exhaustion.
What is exhaustion again? Recharging! Recharge, people! And perk yourself up for a brand new friday!
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Aww...
See! I'm on Hidayah's new blog skin! See! I've never been part of someone's blog skin before!
See!
Hidayah's so sweet lah. I'm almost diabetic now. Gosh, didn't that like sound so utterly familiar? Or is it just me?
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Tuesday, October 03, 2006
It's Mine
Last pair. Last size. Last green design I liked from the lot. I had to have it!
Bought it like more than a week ago from leftfoot! When I was out with mum and aunt jo. Hahahahahaha. Yay!
I'm like so totally broke now, 'cos I've been indulging in retail therapy. In the short month of September, I had a pair of havaianas, a new nike bag, that pair of asics onitsuka tigers, a new polo from fox. Sigh. And the thing is, mum has just renewed my atm card, ever since I lost my wallet and it got terminated back in feb. Sigh.
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Present Hunting
Some weekend ago, when I went out with Edwin and Karen to get Taariq's belated birthday present. Pictures!
Apparently, he was trying to be camera shy.
This was when Karen was trying on this beach dress. And we tried to steal a shot of her. The dress was actually too big for her. Her she is trying to hide.



I think we were quite tired from all that walking around marina square aimlessly, unable to find a suitable jacket for Taariq. We wanted something that would keep warm and is simple and nice at the same time. And then we walked into Fox men. And we found something sooo absolutely suitable! There!
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