I don't feel too good about today. The whole CCA thing was making me go bonkers and right now I am trying to recover from it all. I hate making choices for myself, and Karen and I were just saying that it's so weird that those who cannot make choices want to make them so badly, whereas those who have the liberty to make choices do not want to. I fall into the latter's category.

I just want to say that I really hope that I am making the right choice for myself. Since the first three months, I've more or less messed up all the plans I had for CCA. Floorball's out for me already, and I am sick of asking myself why. I think I am gonna fall back onto choir. Just something that I've been doing for the past 4 years. Sigh. Will I be happy in the long run? I don't want to regret, and then start whining all over again lah.

All this uncertainty about choir has sprung up because it's true - nothing's ever gonna be the same as Dunman choir. I don't want to enter Meridian choir and have these expectations that I might not be able to fulfill at all. Dunman choir has taught me a hell lot about life, and it hasn't been easy, so I just hope another 2 years in choir will more or less be an easy ride for me.

Besides, I should really focus on my studies. Why the hell am I so messed up just because of CCA!?

On a lighter and happier note, I am slightly happy because school will start at 8:30am tomorrow. And Death Cab rocks my smelly socks!