The recent chain of events have put me on the brink of helplessness. Coupled with the bout of exhaustion from my being unwell and the lack of sleep, I've not been able to garner strength from anywhere.

Sometimes I wonder if I am actually doing what's best for myself, or am i doing what's best for others and neglecting my best interests? Or is it the other way round. Whatever it is, I just know that I've been putting myself out there in the deep blue sea and making myself so vulnerable I don't even know it.

On a separate note, telling you about how I really felt all this while took a burden off my back. But it didn't necessarily make me happier. I just felt more bold, more courageous, more of myself than I usually am. I just wanted you to know, but is that all?